Letter Of Love

I hesitate to write today, but I cannot help my feelings for you…
The way I hold in my heart, you truly are the love of my life. 

It has been almost a week since we parted,
After a very difficult and emotionally draining day. 

I have not heard from you…
Honestly, I am wondering if what we talked about still has meaning. 

I am questioning… 
I have to believe it was and is real,
Until you tell me differently...

This letter to you baby is to give my feelings to you in writing…
So you can see and read how I feel about you,
And if you wish…hold onto these lines and treasure them in your heart. 

Much time has passed since we held each other...
 Since we shared the mutual emotions and feelings of a romantic relationship, 
I want to tell you that I still love you…as much as ever…and nothing has changed in my heart, 
I can’t help loving you, caring for you, and hoping that you will come home to me… 

I have to believe that in your heart, you have all these feelings too. 

You gave me a poem not so long ago,
Part of that poem said that love forgives, forgives and forgives... 
It’s true, I forgive you for anything that you have said or done…
That’s what love is in my opinion. 

You have not destroyed anything my love…or messed it up…
I still love you, and even if you don’t love me back…my love for you will never change…
My heart still belongs to you…even if you don’t want it.

I respect your decision to become independent and self-sufficient, 
If that is what you want, 
But listen…if you wish to build a life with me…
I will be there to build a life with you. 

What does everything I'm saying mean? 
It means joining our lives together, it means that we are both equals in a partnership of love…
And it means that you are not taking advantage of me in making a home…
...Even when you feel like you are not contributing. 

Just being there emotionally and physically is contribution enough... 
When you bond your life to the one you love…
There is no monetary gauge, no physical amount that you are expected to do,
No shame…you just put your emotional and loving “all” into the union…

In truth and reality, if you are there giving your emotional “all”, nothing else really matters,
At least to me... 

Look at it this way…
If I had tough times, either emotionally, physically or monetarily,
Would you see me as failing in the relationship?
Or would you just support and love me no matter what.

I cannot make you love...or want to be with me completely,
You know already that I want you for who you are inside…problems and all.
 
I want to convince you…but in the end I know that the decision is yours,
All I can offer you is unconditional love,
The opportunity to have stability and solace in a deep and loving relationship.
 
If you cannot get close to me because you are afraid of failing…
Think of this…
You have always been successful in my eyes…
My love for you doesn’t see how you screw-up,
It only sees ways to love you and support you…
And how I can be there to help you through tough times. 

Well my Love, there is so much more to say…
I wish that I could tell you face to face...
I promise you…it you choose to return it won't be a mistake.

One more thing before I go, 
I never told you that you were my inspiration to write poetry, 
It was you who sparked the desire to talk about my life and  feelings through poetic lines.

I love you sweetheart…and no matter what you choose…
Always know that you have a home in my heart.

Forever and always baby…

Eric B. Ramey

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